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March 18, 2008

Well, I am officially two thirds of the way through my treatment now... all these landmarks help to make it feel that time is passing quickly.  Dee is due back from Dubai in just over 5 weeks, Lee's birthday in a couple of weeks and its easter next week - lots of things happening to make the time go quickly.  A few years ago now I was fit enough (just about anyway!) to take part and complete the Lincoln 10k Run and I have been proud of my medal ever since and would love to do another 10k run.  I understand my friend Mrs Matty (who helped me get round that time) has been training for it again, so good luck to you for the 30th and hope you beat your personal best! 

The cream doesn't seem to be fixing the nasty patch of red skin on my forehead so I am back to the doctors on Thursday morning.   Hopefully he will then refer me to a specialist as per Dr Sree's letter.  The patch keeps growing so sombody has got to do something soon!  The itches arn't quite so bad, but I am taking two piriton per day and absolutely refuse to touch my skin because that sets off a huge itching session.  I still get very tired and guess that is something I have to get used to.  I will be fine one minute and then its like somebody has pulled the plug and my energy just goes down the drain and I have to rest.  I have been for a couple of walks with the dog this week - when the weather allowed and it was nice to be outdoors again.  No matter how many layers I wear I just cannot seem to keep warm though and I am happiest - and warmest - in my pyjama's, dressing gown and fleecy socks.

Anyone readig my blog my have noticed that on the home page there is a page for Diet and Fitness which, when you click on it, is empty.  That's because my diet is so bad and my fitness non existent that there is nothing to write about!  My general diet before tx was pretty good and healthy and I expected to carry on that way, but there are some foods I just cannot face any more.  Fish, ugh.  Vegetables,  carrots are too sweet, cabbage too bland, spinach to soggy.  Chips, can't get enough of them and would never touch them before or if I did I would have "6", always six chips :) Potatoes, yep baked with loads of margarine and tofu cheese.  Bread, lovely - hot buttered toast with lashings of marmalade.  Fruit, anything and everything, can't get enough, apples, pears, pineapple, cherries, strawberries, cranberries, blueberries, bananas and oranges, the more the merrier.  I ate very little fruit before tx but masses of veggies.  I can smell garlic and wine a mile away!  My weight goes up and down by about half a stone every other week and is completely out of my control.  I am hopeful that after tx I will be able to put something useful in the diet and fitness page.

So, shot #33 later today, leaving 15 left to go.  It still hasn't got any easier sticking that needle in my leg every week.  At the very beginning Lee wrote me a little summary of the correct order of doing things in case I forgot and I still refer to that little piece of paper each week.  It's like a little ritual.  I get my shot out the fridge an hour before I use it.  Then I find a plaster to have at the ready, in case I need one and my little note from Lee and we're ready to do business.  They say junkies get addicted to the routine as much as to the drugs, oooerrr!  I'm sure I won't miss the routine or the drugs - there are much better things in life than those!