This week I have been on holiday, we didn't go anywhere like Mauritius or Portugal or Australia, but I feel 100% better than I did before the holiday. We just had a week at home pottering about and doing what we wanted to do away from the office, the computer, the phone and the routine of everyday life and it was bliss, long, long overdue! We went fishing one day, shopping one day and had lunch out, pottered about in the garden when the weather allowed and we even went to the golf driving range. I cleaned ALL the windows inside and out - a major achievement as I couldn't have cleaned one successfully a month ago. We bought some books to read.... I bought one that was top of the best sellers list thinking it would be good and when I got it home I realised it is all about vampires and werewolves - never knew so many people could be into that sort of thing. Anyway, I will persevere with it.
I have started exercising on the treadmill and doing a few weights. My ankles and elbows are still very painful, a bit like arthritis, or rheumatism I suppose, and I hobble about but the more I walk the better it is - until I stop :) That to me is a major achievement and means I can start to get fit again. The golf range was fun. I hit 40 balls and only mis-hit two, infact I couldn't believe how well I hit them, neither could Estee! Of course it will be different once I get on the course again, I expect it will all go to pot. I noticed I hadn't cleaned my golf shoes from the last time I wore them in early July last year - perhaps they remembered that I finished on the 16th with a birdie :) which at the time I thought was a very appropriate moment to put my golf game on hold.
Next week I have an ultrasound scan on my pelvic area and abdomen and another blood test to check my blood and also kidney function. I also have to see the Dermatologist the same week. My forehead is very much improved - obviously the more my immune system improves the better it has got. But I shall keep the appointment, get my biopsy results and hopefully he will say he doesn't want to see me again. Estee played an enormous role in helping me through the 48 weeks of treatment, how he coped I'll never know, and he is also an playing an integral part of my post treatment recovery. He never pushes me, well alright he does a bit, and he is always encouraging me to take one more step forward. I love him to bits.
So, I am discovering that there is life after tx. My health will never be 100% again, but who's health is?
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January 2008